Dissatisfaction

I’ve been thinking about a word so eloquently stated by a friend recently on a walk. 

Dissatisfaction.

In the context of certain topics in particular relationships, when discussed, left these overwhelming feelings of pure dissatisfaction. 

What a perfect word for what I feel so often when I forget, a temporary bout of amnesia that there are always those relationships that we keep trying and pushing and forcing into a fantasy box that isn’t the reality we experience in that dynamic. 

If I try to have a deeper conversation with someone who either can’t hear me, understand me and/or brings it back to a topic of what I may see as shallow, I am left frustrated or apathetic and then disappointed that once again, I forgot and lack the discernment to accurately judge that this isn’t the right time, person or topic in this relationship.  It’s human, it’s normal.

I think about the things I currently do for work that lack satisfaction and knowing that it’s time to let go but for me and maybe for you, the hanging on way past the expiration date is just the habit and for so many reasons, some rational and others, not so much.

I think about the relationships that only took a moment to let go and those that took much longer but I smile at each of them because nothing is ever lost at time spent learning and in growth.

Dissatisfaction is really a choice, we can choose to change our expectations of the anticipated outcomes in those relationships or we can just let them go in various ways.  Either choice can be just perfect.